What am I doing.. What am I doing here?

Why am I pretending everything is alright. Why are we all just pretending? Don’t tell me you’re not because I know you’re tired of putting on that fake smile every morning before you leave the house. Don’t tell me that you’re “fine” because I know you’re not. I know you’re slowly dying inside and struggling to appear as if you aren’t. I know. Trust me, I know. It’s not something that’s easy to fix. But you know what I can do? What you can do? You can start by realizing that you are not alone. When you’re standing in front of that mirror wondering what your purpose in life is, you are not alone. When you’re crying with your hands curled into fists screaming at the air, you are not alone. When you don’t even care about getting soaked by the rain anymore because it actually helps you cope with your emotions, you are not alone. When your heart is in a pain so immense that nobody else seems to understand, you are not alone. That’s what you need to realize, what I need to realize. That we are not alone.

yeah i know it contradicts some of my posts, but it's true.