"The next time you say forever, i swear i'll punch you in the face."

mannn, how much i agree.

I love this part of JUNO :)

Leah: Yo yo yoiggady yo.
Juno: I'm pregnant.
Leah: What? Honest to blog?
Juno: Yeah. It's Bleeker's.
Leah: It's probably just a food baby. Did you have a big lunch?
Juno: This is not a food baby all right? I've taken like three pregnancy tests, and I'm forshizz up the spout.
Leah: How did you even generate enough pee for three pregnancy tests?

The middle is a killer :D

ROFFL.

damn straight.

If you're gonna be a player, then I hope you a pro, and you'll know the difference between a wifey and a hoe.

This made me smile.

An English professor wrote the words:
"A woman without her man is nothing"
on the chalkboard and asked his students to punctuate it correctly.

All of the males int he class wrote:
"A woman, without her man, is nothing."

All the females in the class wrote:
"A woman: without her, man is nothing."

Punctuation is powerful.

MHM!

If you are forbidden to do something, it makes you even more interested in doing it.

'Cuz you probablyy don't know.

here are some unusual facts:
-eskimos use refrigerators to keep food FROM freezing.
-the sentence "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog", uses every letter in the alphabet.
-The Main Library at Indiana University sinks over an inch every year by the weight of the books.
-The first toilet ever seen on television was on "Leave It to Beaver".
-an estimated 16,000 people worldwide are becoming infected with HIV every day.
-strong negative emotions lead to damage of immune system.
-the dot over the letter "i" is called a tittle.
-only 22% of original forests on earth have remained.
-there are no words in the dictionary that rhyme with orange, purple, and silver.
-on average, 100 people choke to death on ballpoint pens every year.

here are facts about humans:
-the ration of termintes and human in the world is 10:1.
-babies are born with 300 bones but in adulthood we have 206 bones.
-less than 2% of the water is fresh.
-chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying.
-one pound fat equals to 4000 calories.
-there are about 100,000 to 150,000 hars on an average person's head.
-each square inch of human skin comprises of 19 million cells, 60 hairs.
-an estimate of 300 million cells dies in human body every minute.

and these, these are just gross:
-during an hour's swimming at a municipal pool, you will ingest 1 1/2 liter of unrine.
-in an average day, your hands will have come into indirect contact with 15 penises (touching door handles, etc.)
-an averages person's yearly food intake will contain 12 pubic hairs.
-in a year, you will have swallowed 14 insects --while you slept!
-annually, you will shake hands with 11 women who have recently masturbated and failed to wash their hands.
-annually, you will shake hands with 6 men who have recently masturbated and failed to wash their hands.
-in a lifetime, 22 workmen will have examined the contents of your dirty linen basket.
-at an average wedding reception, you have a 1/100 chance of getting a cold sore from one of the guests.
-daily, you will breathe in 1 liter of other peoples' anal gases.
-your feel sweat 91 1/4 cups of sweat each year.

He's Just Not That Into You

He misses you? Good. He should. You're sexy, pretty, fun, outgoing and fun to be around. Guys that haven't met you yet, miss you. But don't get back together with him, because somewhere out there, there is a guy searching really hard for you. He's the one who deserves someone as amazing as you, so wait for him. Give yourself to him and don't go back to the asshole who didn't realize what he had when you were with him.

Lmfao, hahahahahhh

really tho.

I absolutely resent it

when pretty girls who know they are pretty call themselves ugly. Or when skinny girls say they're fat. But when people call me pretty, I just don't see it. And I feel bad for saying that I'm not because I don't want to be like those girls I resent (if i really am pretty).

WHAT'S UPBABY?

Jake: do you smell that? like in the air?!
Isabella: uh, no?
Jake: are you sure? you don't smell that?
Isabella: smell whaaaat?!
Jake: man, it smells like upbaby!
Isabella: up. baby.?
Jake: yeah, upbaby. don't you smell that?
Isabella: what's up baby?
Jake: not much. what's up with you, baby?

BAHAHA!

-______________-

Alright so my mom's phone rings and I answer but but I drop it.
Me: ...aw shit
Mommy: ...lame-o
AHAHAHA, whatta fail.

Don't settle for the one who kisses your ass.

Wait for the one who pushes your buttons & pisses you off. Love isn't supposed to be easy, it's supposed to be worth it.

ah, the memories.

I like sneaking over to people's houses during the late hours of the night; invited of course. I like how quiet the setting is and how we have to whisper. I like sitting in the dark or just having a simple night light on. I then like to leave during the early, early morning so I could slowly walk home in the chill weather. Best situation ever.

everyone repetitively asks me if i'm okay.

what am i supposed to say? "no, i'm not okay." then what? so i just smile and say that i'm fine even though i'm really dying inside.

*sigh*

I want you to hug me from behind unexpectedly. I want you to give me your hoodie when I'm cold. I want you to hold me and keep me warm. I want you to cuddle with me and watch movies. I want you to kiss me in the rain. I want you to hold my hands and play with my fingers. I want you to play with my hair. I want you to take amazing photos with me. I want you to lay in my bed with me and just hold me. I want you to let me dress you up and make you look silly. I want you to tell your friends everyday how much you love me. I want you to write me songs and poems. I want you to watch the sunrise with me. I want you to give me piggy backs ride daily. I want you to kiss my nose. I want you to wipe my tears away. I want you to tell me you miss me. I want you to drop everything and hug me tight. I want you to take pictures of us. I want you to take me on a picnic. I want you to snuggle with me in the movie theaters. I want you to squeeze me as hard as you can when you hug me. I want you to smile every single time you see me. I want you to know how much I love you. I just want you.

i like...

how you're clueless about my crush.
how we have classes together.
how you compliment me.
how you can make me smile.
how you can make me laugh.
the way you make me forget about everything for a split second.
the way the littleest things you say make my day.
the feeling.
your warm tight hugs.
your sense of humor.
your laugh.
your smile.

IF A BOY REALLY LIKES YOU, HE DOESN'T CARE HOW TIRED HE IS, HOW MUCH HOMEWORK HE HAS OR HOW LATE IT IS. HE'LL TALK TO YOU.

awwwwwwwwww <3

I CONFESS THAT IN 2009, I HAVE...

( )stayed single for the whole year
( )made out in/on a car
( )kissed in the snow
( )celebrated Halloween
(x)kissed in the rain
(x)had your heart broken
(x)broke someone else's heart
(x)had a stalker
(x)went over the minutes on your cell phone
(x)had a good relationship with someone
( )someone questioned your sexual orientation
( )gotten pregnant
( )had an abortion
(x)have a relationship with someone you'll never forget
(x)done something you've regretted
(x)lost faith in love
( )kissed under a mistletoe

OTHER
(x)painted a picture
(x)wrote a poem
(x)ran a mile
(x)shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x)posted a blog
(x)listenend to music you couldn't stand
(x)went to a sleepover
(x)went camping
(x)threw a surprise party
(x)laughed till you cried
( )laughed till you peed in your pants
(x)visited a foreign country
(x)cut in line of waiting people
(x)told someone you were busy when you weren't
( )partied to celebrate the new year
( )cooked a disastrous meal
(x)lost something/someone important to you

IN 2009 I...
(x)broke a promise
(x)lied
(x)went behind your parent's back
(x)cried over a broken heart
(x)disappointed someone close
(x)hid a secret
(x)pretended to be happy
( )slept under the stars
( )kept your new years resolution
(x)forgot your new years resolution
(x)met someone who changed your life
( )met one of your idols
(x)changed your outlook on life
(x)sat home all day doing nothing
(x)pretended to be sick
(x)left the country
( )almost died
(x)given up something important to you
(x)lost something expensive
(x)learned something new about yourself
(x)tried something you normally woudlnt try and liked it
(x)made a change in your life
(x)find out who your true friends were
(x)met great people
(x)stayed up till sunrise
(x)cried over the silliest thing
( )was never home on weekends
(x)got into a car accident
(x)had friends who were drifting away from you
(x)had someone close to you die
(x)had a high cell phone bill
( )spent most of your money on food
( )had a fist fight
(x)went to the beach with your best friend
(x)saw a celebrity
(x)gotten sick
( )liked more than 5 people at the same time
(x)became closer with a lot of people

THE MOST ADORABLE THING I HAVE EVER SEEN!

Who'd have known, Lily Allen

You put your arm around me shoulder
And it was good the room got colder
And we moved closer in together
And started talking about the weather
You said tomorrow would be fun
And we could watch a place in the sun
I didn't know where this was going
when you kissed me.

ohmaannnn ;D

LOVE IS A SENSATION, CAUSED BY A TEMPTATION, TO FEEL HIS PENETRATION. A GUY STICKS HIS LOCATION IN A GIRL'S DESTINATION, TO INCREASE THE POPULATION FOR THE NEXT GENERATION, DID YOU GET MY EXPLANATION, OR DO YOU NEED A DEMONSTRATION?

ONE OF THE CRUELEST THINGS

you can do to another person is to pretend that you care about them more than you really do.

The Ass Family.

LMFAOO.

that boy...

You know, there's always gonna be that one boy. That you see as a "best guy friend" or a brother. The boy that's there for you no matter what. The boy you call late at night when your actual boyfriend is being a jerk. The boy that threatens to kick any guy's ass who hurts you. He's always gonna be there. The boy who all your firneds swear he looks at you in a special way, but you think it's grossl; you don't see him in that way. There's always gonna be that boy that's your back-up plan, almost like a best friend. When that jerk bails out of going to prom with you, this boy will take you "as friends" of course. There's always gonna be this boy. The boy you are falling in love with. The boy you once thought of as your best friend will develop into something much more. After all; he's always been there, because no matter what, there will always be this boy.

ROOOOFFFLLLLL!

I'd fake my happiness

just to see you smile.

lmfao, avery :D

CBabyHollister: Seven shots in one day... Damn. I thought if i fell asleep there, i wasn't gonna wake up. forreal.
ISABELLAx3YOUU: Are you drinking without me? AHAHA,
CBabyHollister: No. I'm talking about other shots.
ISABELLAx3YOUU: LMFAO!

never thought 2009 would end like this.

it's been an endless roller coaster. and i CANNOT wait till 2010 gets here.

don't cry,

say, "fuck you!" and smile.

awwwh.

remember when we first met?
we laughed and smiled together.
it was a perfect moment and,
we didn't even know each other.

How asians take pichuurs.

ROFL.

this gurl right hurrrrr <3

Sammie: A-fuckin-men.
Isabella: MEN!
Sammie: Are cuuute.

-laughter

a tip for guys: wearing a hat can somehow make you more attractive.

I'd say with an earing too :)

a tip for guys: wearing a hat can somehow make you more attractive.

I'd say with an earing too :)

for some reason,

unexpected phone calls outta nowhere are really nice. especially if they're from somebody verrrrry important <3 (:

oh bianca,

ohaisabellabby: It was so funny
ohaisabellabby: cuz I was like you're gonna give me herpes
ohaisabellabby: and he was like
ohaisabellabby: WHAT ?!
biancasonnn: LMFAO
ohaisabellabby: ahahahahahahaha
biancasonnn: stupod
biancasonnn: *stupid
biancasonnn: HAHAHAH
ohaisabellabby: fail
ohaisabellabby: AHAHAHA
ohaisabellabby: Stupid (:

HUGGING ALSO

`eases tension
`fights insomnia
`keeps arm and shoulder muscles in condition
`provides stretching exercise if you are short
`provides stooping exercise if you are tall
`offers a wholesome alternative to promiscuity
`offers a healthy, safe alternative to alcohol and other durg abuse (better hugs than drugs!)
`affirms physical being
`is democratic; anyone is eligible for a hug

LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :L

hot rod ft. tila tequila - i like to fuck

Baby don't take it personal, when i go
and fuck these hoes. Let's talk about the word
fuck for a second, I make love to you!

AHAHAHA this songg.

AYE, CALL ME ;)

Girl: Hey, we're best friends, right?
Boy: Yes of course.
Girl: Can I ask you something then?
Boy: Yeah, sure.
Girl: Be honest with me, who do you like?
Boy: I don't like anyone, I love someone.
Girl: Oh, she must be a special girl.
Boy: Definitely. Ever since I met her, I've loved her.
Girl: Really? Wow. Well since you and I are best friends, I wanna meet her.
Boy: Um, sure. *takes out phone and calls her*
Girl: Hold on, I think I'm getting a call. *answers phone*
Girl: Hello?
Boy: I love you.

I want one of these ;)

I told myself I wouldn't fall for you.

Yeah I don't know what happened, but I did anyways.

-- Charlie Brown

I think i'm afraid to be happy because whenever i get too happy, something bad always happens.

average jill.

i'm your basic run-of-the-mill, average-jill, girl-next-door, dime-a-dozen, chick-on-the-street type of girl who doesn't do much or say much. I take what's given to me, no questions asked nor substitutions. It's been this way ever since i can remember, never questioned why or how things happen, i just deal & well i guess things work out but i'm never really satisfied. I guess i'm this way because form all those times where i've been rejected or said no to, i've gotten hurt, and to avoid that feeling, i've just taught myself to deal. I think that's why i'm the average-jill, girl-next-door, chick-on-the-street type of gal who nobody really notices, and well i'm not sure if i like the sound of that. I'd rather make life how i want it to be, how i want it to go, and how i want it to turn out in the end. No questions nor substitutions, just me. Just me living my life how I want it. Hey, that sounds much better, i actually like the sound of that, don't you?

I hated waiting for your nonsense messages,

&yet, I still sit here, and stare at my phone for hours.

Forever?

that's what you said.

Two words.

Boy: I have two words to tell you.
Girl: What's that?
Boy: I love you.
Girl: Isn't that three?
Boy: No. Because 'You' and 'I' count as one.
;)

truetruetrue.

EVEN THE SMALLEST LIE COULD RUIN THE BIGGEST TRUST ONE COULD GIVE TO A LOVED ONE.

this just made mine and jenny's day :)

LMFAO. i love urbandictionary.com with a passion.

Don't ever compare me to other people.

I may not be as preetty as that model in the magazine. I may not be as attractive or hot as that girl who passes by. And I sure as hell ain't perfect. I never said I was and I'm never going to be. SO why are you telling me to look at the girl in the magazine or at the one who passed by? Am I supposed to care and change myself to be like her? This is just another one of your ways of putting me down, isn't it? I'm never enough for you. I'll never reach your stupid expectations. But one thing I know, I'll never change myself for you or anyone else but myself.

Yup.

I don't wanna be a second best.

I don't wanna be a substitute.

I don't wanna be your last resort.

If you only want me because you can't get her, then fuck it.

What's teenage love?

It's staying up late for each other & barely staying awake in class
the next day. It's passing each other between classes & stopping to say Hi,
but ending up running to your next class right beforethe bell rings. It's going
to the mall, wandering around hand in hand, with a silence
that's comfortable. It's watching a movie in the theaters with his arm slowly
creeping onto your shoulders, & you resting your head in
his arms. It's walking around at night, for no reason
at alll his chest, her head, looking at the stars. It's uncertainty of how long
it will last, a risk you're both willing to take, even if it
means you'll have a broken heart. It's not yet true love, not like, nor lust, nor infatuation. It's
teenage love, here to stay, here to play with our
hearts & never go away.

the word love doesn't deserve to be in a teenager's vocabulary.

"Isabella,"

There are a lot of

people who call me

by my name.

But there is only

ONE PERSON

who can make it sound

so damn SPECIAL.

GG's guys <3

Ed Westwick <33

Chase Crawford <3

I'm not a little girl anymore.

I've learned who to trust and who to ignore. Some girls don't know a thing and a suit case full of drama is about all they bring.

Do you ever feel like

you're working for something you're never going to get? The you shoot & miss kind of deal. No matter what, you just can't have it. But that makes you fight for it just a little bit more?

GGAAAHD,

You can't tell someone

that you'll be there and then walk away like you don't care. I'm not saying this because I'm mad. I just want you to understand that one day, it's gonna catch up with you.

The way you make me feel is like,

Smelling fresh cut grass or being in the back of a convertible under the stars. Or returning home from a long trip or just driving with no destination in the summer. It's like the feeling you get when you get an 'A' on your report card and your parents tell you how proud they are. Or when you hear your family laugh together or the whooshing of a tunnel when you drive with the windows down. It's like when you're outside on a hot summer day and you have a cold glass of water or when you talk to an old friend after a month or two, yet the two of you are still as close as ever.

It's like the feeling you get when you hear your favorite childhood song on the radio for the first time in ears, you turn it up and feel so alive. Or lying in bed watching a snow storm, knowing you don't have to get up for hours and just lay in the warmth of your comforters for hours. It's the way your stomach flip flops during your first true kiss, or how your body feels when you take off in an airplane for the first time. Or when you drive around in the front seat of the car that belongs to the boy you like and even though you should feel scared beyond control because he's driving so fast and stupid, yet you feel so safe and alive. Yeah, that feeling.

The way you make me feel, feels good to me.

Can I for forreal?

This is how I feel. I'm in need of love. So let's dip up out of here. You, you're just my type. Everything's so right. And I just wanna chill. So let's dip up out of here.

The best things in life:

* Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
* Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
* First kisses.
* Making new friends and spending time with the old ones.
* Singing in the bathroom.
* Sweet dreams.
* Hot chocolate.
* Making cupcakes and cookies.
* Holding hands with someone you care about.
* Watching a sunset.
* Sleeping in.
* Taking long, hot showers.
* Starbucks.
* Knowing that somebody misses you.

I used to care so much for you.

Now, I don't give a fuck what you're doing and who you're doing it with. It makes me kinda sad when I think about it.

When you're thinking about how much you miss me,

and I'm completely fine, remember how I felt, and remind yourself this is what you wanted. Because with every day coming and going, I'm slowly learning how to be okay without you. And I can't wait for the day when I get to look at you and feel absolutely nothing.

You didn't lover her.

You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love her. Because you don't destroy people you love.

I can be myself, outgoing, bubbly, uninhibited, around other guys that I have no feelings for.

This makes them think that I like them, when I don't.

Should I be sorry? lmao.

I also wish

you knew what other guys are doing to try to be with me; maybe then you'd realize what you lost.

I wish I could be truly happy for once in my life.

Like when I was a kid. That's all I have ever wanted. To be happy.

I told myself that I stopped thinking about you,

but I still do. I think about you everyday. It's so wrong of me. I don't understand why I still kinda care when it feels like you've forgotten about me already.

I know you did that on purpose.

You won't let me move on. You talk to me when I start to forget all about you. Try to make me fall for you again when you don't intend to catch me. You try to flirt your way into my heart. It worked ONCE and only once. You already had your chance, honey. So leave me alone. And if you happen to see this, then I'm glad you did. And I hope you enjoy suffering your consequences. I'm gonna go on with my day now. Just do me a favor and forget about me, bye.

Sometimes you need to be alone.

Sometimes, you just don't want to be comforted. Because you need the chance to take it in. All that has been, all the pain left behind. The best cure is time on your own to analyze, time to pull yourself together again and time to see that all you ever wanted is now nothing but a fading memory. Time to let it go, and time to start again.

I'm happy when I'm with my friends.

But when I'm home, alone in my room, everything hits me. That's when the waterworks set in.

It's cute when

you stare at me until I look at you and when I catch you staring, you don't look away super fast like guys usually do but instead, you make a cute funny face at me to make me smile. Hahaha. Derek <3

I thought he was this guy.

a guy out there was meant to be the love of your life.

your best friend. your soul mate.

the one you can tell your dreams to.

he'll brush the hair out of your eyes.

send you flowers when you least expect it.

he'll stare at you during the movies. even though he paid $9 to see it.

he'll call you to say goodnight or just cause he is missing you.

he'll look in your eyes and tell you,

"you're the most beautiful girl in the world"

and for the first time in your life, you'll believe it.

____________________________________________

-Nicolas Sparks.

After we stopped talking, I tried so hard to fight for myself and stay alive.

To make sure that I would never miss you. That I would never give in to the thought of wanting you back. To believe that I was better off without you. I kept myself busy, tried new things, and reconnected with old friends. I began to build myself into an independent person. Sometimes you cross my mind and I wonder how you were able to move on so quickly. Then those memories came back and I remembered how happy I was. I know that I could never change you but a part of me wished that maybe, just maybe you would see me as THE girl, not just another girl. But you're still the same person that you were when I met you. I don't think that you'll ever change your ways. Even if you dated another girl, I just wanted you to see that losing me was the biggest mistake that you ever made. I'm not lonely. I'm not weak. And I know that everything happens for a reason. But for now, all I want is some closure. I'm not ready to put myself out there again. And if I ever do, I'll make sure that he won't be like you--at all.

I want you to remember me someday.

I want you to remember our conversations at some random moment, and I want you to feel a stabbing pain go right through the middle of your heart and for that fleeting moment in time, I want you to feel like I did.

I wanna say I'm not like this anymore.

But I can't. I still am. I'm still love sick. I block out everyone. I feel so tired, because I haven't slept in forever. I know he'll be in my dreams but I don't wanna stay awake laying in my bed crying either. I'm starving, but I can't eat because I'm craving him and every memory just leaves me with a bigger whole in my heart. Even my clothes remind me of him; what I wore when we hung out. I can still smell them all over him, even though his scent hasn't been there for long. I wish his scent would be stuck on me, but I know I'd be pulling my skin to get him off of me. I'm online, he signs on, and I just want to scream at him to go away, but I just watch the screen waiting for him to say anything, but then he signs off and I tear myself apart for not saying anything to him. I stop talking to my friends, and they get worried and try comforting me, but they just make me feel worse because they think they know, but they don't have a damn clue.

People have scars.

In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret road maps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scare, but some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere. And though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers.

I'm not a little girl anymore.

"For anyone who's ever betrayed me, intentionally hurt me, or two-timed me, I'm not going to dwell on trying to make your life miserable and tell you I'm going to fight you. No, better yet, I'm going to sit here and tell you, karma is a motherfucker and you'll get yours."

The Truth Is...

I'm scared. Scared out of my mind. I'm scared of trusting the wrong people. I'm scared of getting hurt all over again. It terrifies me that every single person that I let into my life could and possibly will do something that someone in the past did to me. I don't want to make the same mistakes again. I wish I could give these new people an easier chance to earn my trust. I wish I could even give people from the past another chance, but I'm too scared to let my guard down. I don't know what to do aboyt it, I'm sorry.

I'm single

& very much tired of bullshit. I just don't want to get hurt anymore. I want to find a keeper, someone who will treat me like their priority & not their option. Ugh, how much longer do I have to wait?

Haven't been myself lately.

I know I haven't. Sorry, but I just can't. I can't do it. I finally got away, I finally escaped the pain - I never thought it would happen but it did. And now, I can't just go back to you. To everything, I can't just turn around and walk back to when it took so long for me to pluck up the strength to
turn my back and leave in the first place. I can't do this to myself all over again, so I'm sorry, but I can't.

hm,

Every girl needs a man. You know, the kind that'll treat you right. The kind that has enough respect for you & is willing to change, just to be with you. The kidn that searches for you will all his heard & that can be trusted in a room full of beautiful girls. Every girl needs a man who won't cheat on her because he knows she's got all that he wants & needs already. He won't mind calling you early in the morning just to say good morning or late at night to say good night; maybe even sing you a good morning song & tell you a bedtime story or talk to you until you fall asleep. This guy will be the kind that'll do anything for you, even if it's to just go to the store & buy your favorite kindd of candy. He would defend & fight for you & wouldn't bail on you for his friends when you need him most. The kind that won't leave you lonely & wondering; the one that calls you surprisingly, even if he's out with his friend, to tell you that he loves & misses you a lot. The kind that isn't afraid to smile to his friends every time you're around and tell them, "She's the one". The kind that appreciates you for the things you do for him, even if they're little. The ones that actually thank you for the little love notes you leave him, waits for you when you're falling behind, & opens doors for you. Every girl needs a man who will take you out on dates once in a while & buys you flowers just because it's a Wednesday. The kind of guy that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him. He would remind you that he loves you & that he's happy to be with you, just in case you forget. The kind taht just doesn't want want kisses & hugs, but to actually be loved & to lobe. You deserve a guy that will call you beautiful instead of hot, who kisses your forehead when you're down, tells you to be strong & not to cry, & when you do cry, he'd cry with you when times are hard. The kind that will go through thick & thin with & for who you. The kind that just loves you for who you are & not for who you aren't and loves you because you're his favorite girl in the whole wide world.

i was thinking of him as i was writing this,

but i doubt that 'we' will ever be.

12760.)

You call me your best friend but it seems that the only time you want to hang out with me is when nobody else wants to deal with you.

Wow,

I used to know you so well...

Have you noticed that

we're always waiting for something. It starts when you're a child; sitting in front of the oven waiting for the cookies to bake. It's knowing that you've done everything right and now all you're waiting on is the reward for your hard work. It's in your teens, when you're engrossed in "happily ever after" syndrome - waiting for your prince charming to come and sweep you off your feet into the sunset. It's when you're eighty, slowly opening your eyes and feeling the world engross you in its entirety. Waiting for that moment, the moment where you close your eyes and the pain disappears - waiting for heaven to take you away. Throughout life, we're taught to wait; we are taught patience, love, and compassion. We learn that life is about waiting, it's about staying positive and looking forward to the future, no matter what may come our way.

I'm fucked up to you now not because I hate you but because I miss you yet I refuse to let my guard down for you again.

I'm mean because I can't handle letting you get your way when you don't deserve it. I'm so sorry taht it hurt you but I have to do this for myself. I can't keep getting hurt just so you can get what you want. Yes, I still care about you but I'm over whatever it is taht we had. I can't do this anymore. I'm sorry.

But when i look in the mirror,

"I see a girl who's been through so much, and yet, still finds a way to
smile at the past. She still loves with all her heart, or what's left of it. and
when you see her walking in the hallway, i can guarantee you she'll have her
head up high, faking a smile just one more time. And for all those people who
try to break her, trust me; you never will."

Hopefully

SMY.

I hate looking at myself and realizing that I don't like what I see. I hate looking back at things I did and wondering why I was like that.

Everyday, there's something wrong. Just one trivial thing that can make me unhappy for just a moment. It's like it's not even possible to have a day without one bad feeling.

Remember,

All I want is one person. For one person that isn't fooled by this mask I wear. Looking like I don't care. Just because I don't talk about it doesn't mean it isn't in my head and thinking about it. One person to force me to say how I really feel.

"Don't waste your time worrying about boys. Boys will come and go. Don't waste your time caring about the people who don't like you. Chances are, you don't like them either. Don't waste your time worrying if people are talking about you. You affected their lives, they didn't affect yours. Waste your time with friends. Live for the moment, laugh often, be immature, do anything and everything. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late and when you wake up, laugh about it with your friends, cause your friends are what matters most. When you have friends, you have everything.

no one.

you need no one to validate your self worth.

Along the way, I've learned that you can't let anyone in too far and you can't trust endlessly. The biggest mistake you can make is to care or love someone more than yourself, because then you are just setting yourself up for disappointment. Boundaries are necessary so that you can protect yourself, because once you're broken, you'll never be fully fixed.

Late night phone calls.

Don't you just miss the days where you hear someone's voice before you go to sleep? Or just waking you up in the middle of the night, just cause they miss you like that? Don't you just miss it overall?

I should be used to it.

Does it ever feel like nothing you do is ever good enough? Like, the whole world has turned its back on you. I do. Sometimes, it feels like I'm on top of the world. But then, I look down and realize it's only a step ladder. It's like a 5-year-old coloring a picture. She works for hours and hours on it, but in the end, all we see are mere scribbles. You probably think I'm stupid, don't you? You're probably not even listening to me. It's all right. I'm getting used to it.

the perfect guy for me.

Who wants the perfect person? Not me. I don't want anyone perfect. I don't want anyone normal, that's just boring. I want someone weird. I want someone unpredictable. I want someone who lets things slide and who loves to laugh and make me laugh. I want someone who will be crazy about me, and isn't afraid to let everyone know it. I want him to be able to tell me to shut the hell up when I am bugging him. I want someone who challenges me, in every way. I want someone who puts up with my shit, but isn't a push over. I want someons who pisses me off, but I can never be mat at, but perfect? That's one thing I never want, maybe just perfect for me.

Just keep your faith.

"When we were little, life worked perfectly. No matter what happened, everything turned out alright in the end. Scraped knees, canceled play dates, dropped ice cream cones---we would cry for a short time, but by the end of the day, everything would be perfect. And now as we've grown older, we've lost the faith as we stumble through each day, crying over broken hearts, lost friendships, and lost dreams. It seems like life and perfection have turned their backs on us, but really its just that we've grown up. As children, we didn't pay attention to such details about our daily lives, but now we are more aware, and little details seem to be amplifying our pain. But just remember that when we were younger, life was hard too, but we had faith in perfection because we could look past faults. So don't lose your faith. Learn to know that each day will pass, each heartache will be mended, and everything will be perfect in the end.

Just keep your faith."

never believe people's fronts.

Just because she comes off strong doesn't mean she didn't fall asleep crying and even though she acts like nothing's wrong, maybe she's just really good at lying.

I like to pretend that everything's alright. Because when everybody else thinks you're fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you're not.

After a while, you learn the difference between holding hands and falling in love. You begin to learn that kisses don't always mean something, and promises can be broken as fast as they are made, and sometimes goodbyes really are forever.

So this is when we finally learn the meaning of change.

You do the things you used to be against, you date the people you thought you never would, and you befriend the people you used to hate. You'll learn what it's like to have your heart broken, to lose a friend that truly meant something to you, and to feel as if everything is really falling apart. There will be times that your life seems so absolutely horrible it feels like it's not real. Despite all this, good things will come too. You'll make the most amazing friends that will be there for you even when they probably shouldn't. Your broken heart will heal once you find the most perfect guy you've ever met and just as nothing else can go wrong, things will only get better. There will be the days you are so happy and the days that you feel like dying. Drama happens, gossip goes around, and people talk shit. Maybe this is just the teenage years, maybe it's life, or maybe this is just what growing up is.

She let you go even though it broke her heart.

But just know she wont be coming back to you. She doesn't want to make the same mistakes. She doesn't want to cry herself to sleep every night. She knows she deserves better now and she has moved on. She needs you to accept this for what it is. How do I know? Because "she" is me.

~

Don't ever waste your time on someone who does
not appreciate you the way you should be
appreciated. Don't ever settle for mediocrity,
for being just an option, for being the one
who is always there desperately waiting, for
mere concern or pity or for someone who
likes you just because he knows he's got
the power to break you. Don't settle because
deep down, you know who you are and you
know without a doubt that you deserve
better if not the best.

Dear You,

Response to last post;

"But if you're burying your feelings deep inside you, you won't be your real you, will you?"

November 6, 2009

"No matter how much I feel, I'm not going to let it out. If i have to cry, I'm gonna cry on the inside. If I have to bleed, I'll bruise. If my heart starts going crazy, I'm not gonna tell everyone in the world about it. It doesn't help anything. It just makes everyone's life worse..."

910.

I thought you were different from the rest. Thanks for proving me wrong.

DON'T THINK.

DON'T FUCKING THINK. BECAUSE

WHEN YOU THINK, YOU

REALIZE JUST HOW

FUCKED UP EVERYTHING

REALLY IS. YOU REALIZE

YOU DON'T KNOW HOW

YOU GOT WHERE YOU ARE,

YOU DON'T KNOW WHERE

YOU'RE GOING, AND YOU

DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO

ANYMORE.

i really wish i can just stop thinking.

Ugh.

Some days are harder than others.

Some days I can't even think.

Some days I can't eat or sleep.

Some days I can't even leave my bed.

Some days I feel like giving up.

Some days are okay.

Some days I don't even cry.

Some days I don't even miss you as much.

Some days I don't need to fake a smile.

Some days I almmost feel happy again.

Some days I know I will be okay.

69th post.

head ache, not a good day today.

well, i was juss in a bad mood the whole day.
excopt when i was with mason <3

aha, i get to hack his myspace since he lost our bed.
freaking fucktard.

i'ma type:
Mason Falahat.
Mason is the most amazing guy you will ever meet. You'll want to hold onto him for a lifetime and never let go. He's always got something to say to make a girl feel special. He's super cute and always sweet. A good hug giver (x
&& He's the best football player ever <33
^

i was forced to say that ;D



"SEMINOLES ARE BETTER THAN COUGARS" - juliaLOMBARDI.

oh how

Observations & Opinions

You know what makes me sad? Seeing these cute couples that are so ‘in love’ for a long time and then all of a sudden, they break up and both of their lives come crashing down. It seems that in the beginning, life treats you so wonderfully and you get so excited that you start to think it’s just going to keep getting better but it just ends up getting worse and worse until it results as an unhappy ending. I’m not trying to be negative here but think about it, how many couples do you see breaking up on a good note? Barely any. You’re probably wondering what do THEIR relationships have to do with me? Well.. The way I see it, the happy and healthy couples that seem to last are the ones that keeps my hopes up of being in a relationship such as that in the future. I know that no relationships are perfect, but I myself believe in soulmates. I believe that there is someone out there who you’re meant to spend the rest of your life with, but I don’t think you should be going out there and finding them. I think that if it’s meant to happen with someone, then it’ll happen. But on a different note, something else that I always ponder upon is why so many people bother using the word ‘forever’ when they never actually even mean it. You know, I HATE the word ‘forever’ actually. It’s one of the most meaningless bullshitted word that’s ever been used. ‘Love’ almost beats it, but it’s not quite there. Because from what I see, a FEW people actually mean it when they tell someone that they love them. But who am I to say? I don’t even know what love is. And I think the reason ‘love’ is overused and abused so much is because a lot of those people using it don’t even know what love is either. It sickens me to see how desperate some people are to find love nowadays. You know why? Because you’re not supposed to find love, love is supposed to find you.

Aww.

"I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of that phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly facinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was hurricane."

-John Green, Looking For Alaska

+++

Please know there are much better things
in life than being lonely or liked
or bitter or mean or self-concious.

We are all full of shit.

Go love someone just because,
I know your heard may be badly bruised,
or even the victim of numerous knigings
but it will always heal,
even if you don't want it to
it keeps going.

There are the most fantastic, beautiful
things and people out there,
I promise.

It is up to you
to find them.

nice weather we're having.

My ideal weather. Oh, how I wish it's always like this in California.

September 11, 2009

So today was just amazingly hilarious even though it's supposed to be a sad day. So I woke up pretty early since my brother woke everyone up at 5 in the morning. i took a shower, picked out a cute ish outfit, straightened my hair, put make up on, and all that stufff. then i went to school with simone running away with my ipod. She still has it too. so she's keeping it for the weekend. well anyways, i had 1st period science with krystall. we were freaking out about our turtle project, but we thought of a trash bag project insteead. so that was good. we did a lab with our safety goggles. i looked like a total nerd. oh jeeeez. okay then at brunch me and katryna were just walking around. then when the bell rang, derek walked me to class. but we saw tyler. he didnt even walk his girlfriend to class and it was like right there. then tyler saw us, so derek put his hand around me, tyler starteed freaking out saying "Why didn't youguys tell me?!" then i went to p.e. we had to run a half mile under 6 minutes. i got 5:45 or something. then we did square dancing. that was sooo bad. i hate my group. thank god we get to pick our partners next class. well yeah that was an hour of torture, then we got to change and go to lunch. that was boring. i got a portrait . it was actually pretty good. then we voted for ASB elections. then i saw derek's portrait and bratt told me to tell him to get it, so i went to the soccer field since he was playing with mr. kallin. and theeeen, the bell rang. i got yeajean to walk to me yearbook since derek's class was on the other side of the school. and theen, yeah that was boring. we were just thinking of theme ideas. people said that i should speak up more often cause my ideas were really good. but i'm nott sure if we're using them. and then yeah class ended, i got a camera for bowling later. i was looking for simone and derek. cause simone had my ipod and derek because i needed to tell him something. so i asked tyler if he saw them he said no. then he was like " i know you guys aren't really going out." and i just looked at him. then he was like "but i know something's going on between the two of you." i said there wasn't. but he said "oh come on isabella, just tell me. i know something's going on. you guys hang out 24/7, he walks you to your classes, you talk to each other ever waking minute, you're on his myspace top." all i said was that nothing was going on. cause there really wasnt. i told derek all about it, but then his dad called and i had to go to katryna's. then we went bowling with infinity. that was pretty fun. i learned how to jerk! cause of katryna and alec. ahah. so thankful. then yeah. i got 5 strikes. :)

09.09.09

The three day weekend was so freakking long. I was actually looking forward to going back to school. Tuesday was a pretty good day. In Period 6 english, Julia and I got 17/20 on our grammar quiz. I freaking B! Well, at least everyone else got a C or lower. LMAO. Then we got into partners. So I was with Derek. Oh joy. That was very interesting. Haha. Then we got into our reading groups. It was me, Julia, Brooke, and Derek. We pretty much didn't even work. So we got rushed to think of themes for "Charles". It was alright. And then in advisory, I was sitting by myself. Loner much, rightt?! No friends in that advisory. Sucks ass. Anyways, all of us are supposed to split up on Tuesdays and Thursdays cause of Mrs. Kim's math thing on those days. She originally put me in Slayback's advisory, but Hannah's there. So after class, Emily and I asked if I could be in Bratt's and she actually said yes. So I'm gunna be with Katryna on Tuesdays and Thursdays! (: Oh and Julia (: Haha. Okay moving on. Well, during brunch Zach got expelled for "raping" avery. It wasn't exactly rape. He does it to everyone. But whatever. All his parents had to say was, "At least we know you're not gay." Like seriously?! WTFF. Then I had Social Studies next with KRYSTALL, julia, katryna, emily, and danielle. We studied so much during brunch for the pop quiz. but since katryna begged mr. bratt, he didn't give us one. I still rememer the stuff i had to memorize in 10 minutes! That class wasn't very fun. But Jagger and Nathan kept bugging me for answers :D Kay, then lunch. nothing really happened. OH yeah, i was wearing a Toy Story shirt with michelle! we were walking around showing people that we match . lmao. that was fun. and then the torture class... ALGEBRA 1. We got new seats. I didn't get to chose since she put the tables by threes and assigned the girls on each ends and let the guys pick where to sit. The good thing about it is that i sit behind danielle and brooke garelick. And sit next to brooke kipperstein. BUTTT tyler freaking morad just HAD to sit next to me. Whoopdidoo. That was pretty much hell. We were fighting for the first half of the class. then we got our test results. he got 102% and i got 99%. how very sad. I always get a higher grade than him! how did that happen! omfg. okay well he felt really bad about it, so he was comforting me and putting his arm around me and shieet. then for the next half of the class, we were apparently "flirting". He kept touching my leg, smelling my neck, holding my hand, touching my ass to get my phone, and calling me baby. isn't that nice? Mrs. Kim also saw everything. But I was really upset about my grade and he put my head on his shoulder for like a minute. But then we started fighting again about how he doesnt know when my birthday is. the last time we went to the movies cause according to davis, "he was paying attention to something else." ahaha. then we started fighting about when we're going to ms. mchorney. then about kayla. then about other random crap.
then the day ended with jake walking me home.

You are always so confusing

do me a favor and make up your mind, please? it would definitely make my life so much easier. the things people say to me are sadly accurate. however, they’re not changing my mind; you have to.

"Just because somebody flirts with you, Doesn’t mean they like you. Just
because somebody likes you, doesn’t mean they wanna go out with you. Just
because they wanna go out with you, Doesn’t mean they love you. Just because
somebody loves you, Doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you. Because people lie, things
change. boyfriends cheat, & “Bestfriends” ditch. And there are always gonna
be those people who would kill to see you fall."

The Boy Problem

So… Wanna know what I noticed?Relationship-wise, Once I’m DONE with a relationship, I’m instantly put into another WHEN I’M NOT READY. What’s up with that? And when the relationship starts to head DOWNHILL, I try to do the obvious by sticking around, making it work. The sucky part about that is, as the guy’s being a little punk, another guy who has potential comes around, but I don’t even bother because I’m too busy trying to stay FAITHFUL when my guy could be mackin. I DON’T GET IT. I’ve BEEN THERE, DONE THAT, yet I still put myself through it because I like to think I can handle it a little better than last time because this guy is different.

Face it, sometimes, we don’t let go until they really fuck us over. We let go of them, but not the memories, those which carry so much meaning.

There comes a time when I do look back and smile however. Times spent with those guys who, at the time, were the center of my attention, are priceless.It makes me so confused to know them as a wonderful friend, to a heart-throb, and then into your worst enemy, the one who can make you feel like shit and then their NUMBER ONE just like THAT.

I think it’s crazy how you can spend twice as much time moping and wishing to be with them once it all falls apart rather than when you were with them at the time. Personally, I take the longest to get over a guy. You can’t expect me to be fully single, because a part of me still misses the most recent guy. It’s no wonder why I end up confused and really insecure about this new guy because I end up making myself think that he’s somehow connected with the most recent. In the end, who’s right? You guessed it, the girls.

I don’t ‘experiment’ or ‘play the field’ or whatever, they’re just a lucky dime that I happen to pick up. It’s like making a dollar out of fifteen cents. That dime just happens to last me for a long time until it burns a hole in my pocket. But think about it, if it wasn’t for them, I wouldn’t have had all the better guys come along the way.
It's a win/lose situation.

Guys frustrate me. They’re sneaky, mean, lovable, irritating, irritable, stubborn, weird, lazy, careful, careless, un-aware, you name it. Not ALL guys are like this, but I’m just saying, a handful of guys are.

I’m either rushed, not ready, or too scared to be in a relationship.
I’m not saying I want to be in one, but sometimes it just sucks to look back and see how many times my important relationships failed me. Why?I’m not gonna stand there and be played because I’ve been there, not the best. Because seriously, it’s nothing serious. Why would you die for a moment that will last five seconds and then be ignored for five days? It doesn’t work like that.I want to be straightforward and actually get somewhere, but that’s just asking for too much way too fast. When or if the time comes for the next guy to come along, I don’t know if I can handle it anymore. I’ve handled too much in my history to even care anymore. You see, I gave previous guys most of my heart, time, money, and care, for nothing in return. Whatever I put in, I came back heartless, confused, flat broke, and broken hearted.

It’s funny how in the beginning, I have my guard up and things go really GOOD. Then, when I decide to let down my guard just for a little, everything goes crashing down.I try to make sure nothing like that will happen, it usually works out, but then it just bites me back in the ass when I least expect it.

I’m a woman of my words and right now, I kind of mean it when I say ima be single forever. I said it before, but someone was able to prove me wrong. What happened? You tell me.

What confuses me the most is, WHAT KIND OF PERSON LIKES THE IDEA OF HAVING MULTIPLE LOVERS, LEAVING SOMEONE ON THE SPOT, PLAY SOMEONE IN FRONT OF THEM, MAKING THEM CRY, HURTING THEM INTENTIONALLY, ETC?I NEVER EVER WANT TO PUT SOMEONE THROUGH THIS.Ask me, I’ll tell you what it feels like to be the receiver of such things. Trust me, it’s just brutally painful; words can’t even describe.

For once, I just want to know if someone who really does care, rain or shine, really exists out there for me. I don’t even want to think if I did let that person pass while I was too busy trying to make things work with someone who wouldn’t even give garbage for me.

I just need someone who can prove me wrong by SHOWING ME and STICKING TO THEIR WORDS, letting time go at it’s own pace.
Nothing rushed, no games, no lies, none of that.

Now who wouldn't fall for a guy like this?

"I think that in a lot of ways, he was the kind of guy I was always looking for: one who wasn’t so interested in the “perfect,” girl, whoever she might be. A boy who likes flaws, who sees potential in everything. While Delia’s company may represent chaos, Wes to me is hope. To him, nothing is ever finished, or broken. It’s just waiting to be incarnated, to begin as something new, again."

&& You realize that it's 20 times more fucked up.

Isn’t it funny how day by day

nothing changes

But when you look back

everything is different

Mrs. Kim's Algebra 1A

You know what ticks me off? My stupid Algebra 1 teacher. She cannot speak English. I can’t understand anything she says at all. I mean she has this super thick Korean accent. If she can’t speak proper English, can she just take a class to get rid of her accent? I mean, seriously. None of us can understand her. Plus, she always says “and stuff like that”. Stuff like whaaaaaat?! Ugh. This class is so frustrating. And it’s worse because of HER. She said she really wants to teach, but we can’t fathom what the hell she’s saying. She always just goes on her own pace with the lesson, and none of us can keep up with her. She also doesn’t explain anything. I really want to drop out of her class, but I don’t. Like I’m chill with all the other teachers, except her. I want to keep Bratt, Kallin, and Slayback but I want to switch out of Kim’s Algebra 1 class. Grrr.

Team Infinity.

Okay, so this is what happened on my first day of school.

Keana, Katryna, & I drove to Jamba Juice before we went to school. It was a fun ride there. Keana's dad wanted to walk us to our classes because we were making fun of these scrubs that had their parents with them holding their hands. Hilarios shit. Haha, Keana's dad was just pissing her off and she said that he could hold on to me and Katryna but she'll act like she doesn't know him :D &&then I saw my husband Jakeypoooo. (: AHAHA, I missed him. but i'm really mad at him for flaking on me at the mall. We met up with all of our friends & were looking for "victims" to make fun of. We saw this 7th grade Asian Group with Two black guys. It was freakking funny. And then Danielle walked me to my class with Josh Cohen and he helped me finish my Jamba before i went to Trowell's to get my sched. I almost puked. Gahd. Theeeen, Mr. Trowell gave me my schedule:

Period 1: Yearbook - Mr. Gately
Period 2: U.S. History - Mr. Bratt
Period
3: Science - Mr. Kallin
Period 4: Algebra 1 - Mrs. Kim
Period 5: P.E. -
Mr. Escobar
Period 6: English - Mrs. Slayback
Advisory: Mrs. Kim

STUPID TEAM INFINITY. I was really looking forward to being on Team Xtreme. Grrr. Well atleast I have Jagger, Davis, Tanya, Tyler, Brooke, Lauren, Danielle, Brady, Colton, and other ex-Trail Blazers. Too bad my other my friends aren't on Infinity. They're all on freakking Xtreme D: Well, I went to my Yearbook class and as i was walking towards the 7th grade side to Gately's, i saw Danielle with the same disconsolate expression that was on my face. She said she was on Infinity, so I was happy since we're on the same team. Then we switched schedules, and started screaming! we had indentical schedules! every single class with danielle was awesomeee. Okay well after that we went to yearbook. that was alright. then we went to advisory and i had Mrs. Kim . Gaaah, her accent is sooo annoying. i cannot understand anything she says. Then after that i was on my way to 3rd period when i saw tanya, Avery, Julia, Tyler, Brooke, Lauren, & Kristina. We were all on Infinity. I was so glad a lot of my friends are on the same team as me. Turns out Avery, Tanya, & I had Period 3 Science with Kallin. We walked in the room and HUNTER comes up to me. The last guy i expected to seee. :( Then i saw KRYSTAL! We all decided to sit at the very back of the room . Krystal is my lab partner! ahaha, That class was pretty chill since it was with Kallin. Then we went to brunch. Zack and hunter were all over me. Hunter took my schedule and made sure if we didnt have any other classes together. but we have Algebra 1 period 4 & p.e. escobar period 5 :((((( sucks. Then hunter and i walked to P.E. together. Then we got on the blacktop & saw jagger. Jagger walked with me, but Jordan came and said "OOOOH, Jagger & Isabella walking together. That has to mean something." Then Jagger hit jordan. Pretty funny. That class was just an intro for the 7th graders. so boring. I ahve roll call #1 again :( Then we just sat on the bleachers for 30 minutes with mr. escobar telling us the rules and policies and stufff. School ended! Keana, Kassandra, Hailey, Yeajean, Tanya, Alex, and a bunch of other kids went to Starbucks and hung outt.

Well, overall the day sucked. Hopefully tomorrow doesn't . 2, 4, 6 (:

So school's starting tomorrow...

ugh, yay -_- I’m only excited to see my friends everyday again. I missed them too much this summer. I barely saw anyone & it sucked. Well I saw the majority of my friends at Isabella's surprise going away party & last thursday at registration (:. Well I saw Tyler with his friend Cody West. He was late so I barely got to hang with him. But when my mom was late, I had to stay with them and Reese's pedofile ID picture. & then before that Ian, Danielle, Nicole, Jacob, Angelica, & me were passing out flyers for ASB even though we're not in ASB :D We just met the scrubs, Angelica & Jacob, that day but they're pretty chill. Jake refuses to be called a scrub though. He also said he's Noelle's little sister! :D Jordan Guzman didn't go to registration so Danielle and I didn't get to laugh and point at him.. but we’ll just wait till school I guess. & hmm.. I saw Avery my lover at registration! I haven't spent much time with her since she went to Magic Mountain instead of Isabella's party. I really missed her(: Well this summer went by pretty fast. Actually really fast. I was just looking through pictures from Isabella's party & how Allana and I spent around $200 on the party.. & it feels like yesterday! But it was like.. 2 months ago. WTF?! 2 months?! Wow, where did the time go! Well I’ll be seeing all of my friends at school everyday again. Yay! But Isabella's in the Philippines. Atleast she's coming back & i'm not leaving when she comes in 9th. I’m not very excited for learning in my classes though. But the people! WOOT! Well, I haven't gotten my schedule yet. I'm getting that tomorrow morning in Room 201 with kimbely & ed (: I don't know anyone else that's gunna me in that room though. But I know my period 1 class already. YEARBOOK bby! with Daniella, Ian, Hunter, Emma, Nicole, Jacklyn, and other people I haven't met yet or just don't remember their names . I’m so excited! FIRST CLASS WITH DANIELLE<3 Hah, never thought the day would come! but I'm definetly NOT excited for the class itself. But I have DanielleBotvin, Nicole, & Ian. (: 3 super smart people who can help me when I’m in need. LMFAO. Yay! Well this year.. lets see what changes are coming my way.

agonizing six months.

I feel sad. No matter what he's said, I still feel sad and I want to cry because I'm losing him at the time I've actually found him.

"If I asked you to stay, would you?" I ask later as we're standing by his car.

"Maybe I would, but I don't think you'd ask me. But I swear to God that I'll be
on the first plane back if you ever need saving from anything..."

Science Class. HA.

We share 60% of our genes with a banana, 90% with a mouse, and more than 99 percent with a chimpanzee. Just something to think about.

GOSH DANGIT.

ISABELLAx3YOUU (9:37:16 PM): youuuu, you're sex is on fiiireee.
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love in this KISS KISS

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What is stopping you from doing something so cool that it renders you 'IMMORTAL' ?

No helmet; No breaks
No net; No rope
No condom; No pill
No safe word; No trust fund
No flashlight; No batteries
No walkthrough; No cheats
No HP; No extra lives
No context; No experience
No safety; No fallback
No map; No plan; No guide
No backup; No support
No manual; No help
No r e g r e t s ;

Sometimes I wonder...

what the world would be like if everyone told the truth. No lies, nothing but the truth.

I think all of us would be somewhere different in our lives. Just think about it… We all have told a lie before. We live in a world of lies. I think we would have different friends. Different jobs. Different personalities. We would all be different people.

Either that or the world would be running around in complete fucking chaos.

Tell Him

I know how it feels
To wake up without him
Lying here all alone
Just thinking about him

I can't believe
His hold on me
It's something indescribable
I know he knows
But won't you please

If you see my guy
Just tell him I miss his smile
Tell him I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see him in a little while
Cause I know when he
Holds onto me
He's the one thing that I could never live without.
Oh oh oh oh
Tell him I love him
Oh yeah
Just tel him I love him

The way that he moves
You know what it does to me
When I catch his eye
I can hardly breathe

Still can't believe
His hold on me
He's just so indescribable
I know he knows
But won't you please

If you see my guy
Just tell him I miss his smile
Tell him I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see him in a little while
Cause I know when he
Holds onto me
He's the one thing I could never live without
Oh oh oh oh
Tell him I love him

Every time that I'm around him
I just go to pieces crushing, tumbling to the ground
I'm so glad i found him

I know how it feels

If you see my guy
Just tell him I miss his smile
Tell hin I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see him in a little while
Cause I know when he
Holds onto me
He's the one thing I could never live without
Oh oh oh oh
Just tell him I love him

If you see my guy
Juste tell him I miss his smile
Tell him I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see him in a little while
Cause I know when he
Holds onto me
He's the one thing I could never live without
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
And tell him I love him
Just tell him I love him
Please tell him I love him

25th Hour

We create our moments. It's not actually what the material world has to offer that make things change. It's us. And it will always be us. Time is a great thing if we use it wisely...or should i say emotionally.

Things didn't exist until somebody created it. Or so i believe. It's the same thing on how we believed on how we live our life. To become happy? Fifgures are just figures. Don't be blinded by it.

MOMENTS exist if we believe they exist. If we are willing to create it. In reality, we have 24 hours a day; 7 days a week. And still we will not realize what we are doing. We can create a world where we can say we have 30 days a week and we have a million seconds in a minute. I made it up. It exists when i said it. It's like saying I created the 25th hour. It doesn't exist, but now it does when i said so.

25th hour are moments that we think are out of this world. It's not ruled by any figure or any of the material things we see. It's only within our hearts. We create these things. And it will not be here unless WE BELIEVE IN IT. It goes on and on...

25th hour is a powerful thing. It lies in each and every one of us.

Photography

To me photography is an art of observation. It's about finding something interesting in an ordinary place... I've found that it has little to do with the things you see and everything to do with the way you see them.

HAHA.

I was reading the book "Joy Luck Club" and there was this little Chinese girl that just got her hair cut and permed. Her mother didn't like her new hair so she immediately went to the bathroom and poured water on her daughter's hair to smooth it out. Then the mother said,

"you look like a negro chinese."

There

will probably be a time where my life will flash before my eyes. And when that happens, I want it to be a damn good life.

FML

Why couldn't our lives be like the ones in those movies?

We watch them millions and millions of times, over and over again, and every time, no matter what, our imaginations take over, and we hope and dream; we hope that one day things will work out just like it did in the movie, we dream that some day a guy would care just enough about you to do anything for you, we hope that someone you love can be so perfect as to love you back. If life was like the movies we watch, every story would have a happy ending; every girl would end up with the right guy, the best friends would be best friends forever, and everyone’s dreams will eventually come true. But instead, life has it’s own reality; girls don’t always end up with their Mr. Right, the term ‘best friends’ doesn’t always end with forever, and you have to work to achieve your dreams, and even then, they might not come true. Movies may be based on life, but life will never be based on movies, because not every ‘once upon a time’ has a ‘happily ever after’.

Jacob Black's Top 10 Pick Up Lines

10. “Wanna see my reservation?”

9. “Will you be the mother of my puppies?”

8. “I give a whole new meaning to ‘Animal Attraction"

7. “Wanna play a game? You can be Little Red Riding Hood and I’ll be the Big Bad Wolf.”

6. “So…how do you feel about dogs?”

5. “You look imprintable…I mean uhh..impeccable in that outfit”

4. “Hey baby, need a mechanic for that finely tuned body?”

3. “You look cold. Want to use me as a blanket?”

2. “I can go from furry to naked in 1.3 seconds”

1. “You know what they say, right? Once you go Black you never go back.”

Lake Hollywood(:

Small people only want one thing from you:

Someone else to be as small as they are.

Stay big.

It's the simple things

in life that make me happy. The intoxicating aroma of a burining candle. The vibrant colors of an 8 o’clock sunset. Cool water as it surrounds your body while you swim in the ocean. Making wishes on dandelions. Watching the twinkling stars on a summer night. It’s what gives me a reason to keep on living.

Be bold,

Be daring, be different, be impractical, be anything that will assert integrity of purpose and imaginative vision against the play-it-safers, the creatures of the commonplace, the slaves of the ordinary.

-Cecil Beaton

Seven Pounds

911 Operator: 911 emergency...
Ben Thomas: I need an ambulance.
911 Operator: I have you at 9212 West Third Street in Los Angeles.
Ben Thomas: That's room number 2.
911 Operator: What's the emergency?
Ben Thomas: There's been a suicide.
911 Operator: Who's the victim?
Ben Thomas: I am

The Dark Knight

Nobody panics when things go according to plan, even if the plans are horrifying. And you know the thing about chaos? It's fair.

-The Joker

Isabella's Eyes

Somewhere out in space
A moonlit face was watching
Lookin' to find time to become.
Slowly two lovers lay hypnotized
Holding the moment in their eyes.
World in changes.
Lightly one by one,
We try to hide in the mirrors.
But baby they just keep turnin' up
And I know you can't look away from you
When you're lookin' in into

CHORUS

Isabella's eyes
Shine your light and make your mama smile.
All our angels come
To welcome the awakening one
Awakening wonder

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(Repeat Chorus after third verse)

Once I met a man who knew where he was goin'
And let everybody tag along.
But suddenly love had another plan.
Shook him and took him by the hand.
World in changes
'N' there's a boy I know
Believes that he's in danger
He'll never give up without a fight.
If you open your heart
There's no way to lose
So just surrender to

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Millions of dreams are part of the plan,
But you are the one dream that's real/
This changes everything
Now that I am
In the spell of Isabella's eyes.

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