Haven't been myself lately.

I know I haven't. Sorry, but I just can't. I can't do it. I finally got away, I finally escaped the pain - I never thought it would happen but it did. And now, I can't just go back to you. To everything, I can't just turn around and walk back to when it took so long for me to pluck up the strength to
turn my back and leave in the first place. I can't do this to myself all over again, so I'm sorry, but I can't.