obsessions.

do you ever get that feeling wanting something and thinking of all these possibilities or schemes on how to get it? like you come up with all these plans, or things that might occur and all of a sudden you become so blind to everything else? it’s like you won’t stop until you get it. you start to examine everything, the things he says, body language, or how he looks at you. you take every little thing into consideration that all of a sudden the bell rings for your next period and you are suddenly struck with dissapointment because some how it felt like the shortest class in history. now it’s become an obsession. but yet, you know nothing about him. the only thing you probably know is his name, school, super sexy car, and that he’s extremely good looking. you don’t know his interests, opinions, or if he has any siblings, things like that. so if you don’t know any of these things about him, what’s really caught your eye? is it him? or the thought of him?

this is my dillemma. i’m afraid that i’m only after the catch. i always mistake lust for love, and i really don’t want another bullshit relationship. but it’s just so damn fun the way you look at each other, the flirting, the smiles. Fuck, I can’t help myself.